I am so tired of hearing people say " i had a bad childhood so..." or " my daddy was a bad dad so i dont know how to change a diaper..." blah blah blah. Get off your ass and make something of your self and stop blaming other people for your failures as a human. Just because your dad wasn't super dad doesn't mean that you cant be a loving caring father to your child. Just because you had a "hard" childhood doesnt mean that you have to be a worthless adult. Every single person i know had some sort of bad childhood, but they all grew up and got over it. For fucks sake i grew up in a house where my step father beat the holy hell out of my mother and I for YEARS untill he finally ended up killing her, but you dont see me moping around saying "woe is me, my mommy is dead so i cant be a good and loving mom to my son" NO. i overcame my crappy childhood and moved on. putting that life behind me is the reason i am a fucking awesome mom to my little man, so 'forgive' me if i dont at all have any sympathy for people who want to use excuses for why they cant man up and take care of shit, or become productive members of society.

i started thinking about this because i was flipping thru the tv the other day and it seemed like everything i landed on was bassed on this.. then a friend came over and told me that his counsler at school said " you smoke pot because you are depressed, and you are depressed because you had a bad childhood" Obviouslly this person knew nothing of my friend, because he smokes pot because he likes it, his childhood was as adverage as every one elses. it just irrates the crap out of me that every one seems to think that there has to be a sad fucking reason behind everything that people do.

here are a few HONEST truths...

i smoke pot because i like it. not because my parents do/did so its in my genes. not because it helps me deal with my problems [ha] and most certanily not because i had a crap childhood.

i watch horror movies because i like them, not because my stepfather killed my mom so i am all fucked up in the head... no, i like them. a lot.

my sister in laws husband is a bad dad because he doesnt want to man up and take care of his son.. not because his own dad was crap [beacuse if this was the case wouldnt he want to be better than the father he had???]

my brother in law is an asshole because he chooses to be, not because he has a hard life and was turned into a mean hateful old man... He and my husband grew up together, lived the exact sames lives and my hubs turned into a wonderful husband and father where as my brother in law is just about the worst excuse for a human being i have ever seen. he tries to use the whole "mom was terrible and blah blah blah" but if that were the case then wouldnt my hubby be a shit head too???? My brother in law has chosen to be a douche canoe.


i guess what i am trying to say is man up and get over shit because using the excuse that you had a crappy life is not going to work with me. i am the queen of shitty lives and i turned out just fine. so get off you ass and figure something out because i am going to start calling you on your shit.

Vacation was..... very Interesting.

The Good: The zoo was amazing! they have all of these environments, unlike or zoo. we actually got to walk thru the rain forest, the desert, the swamp [ick] the butterfly exhibit... it was bad ass to say the least. [for pics check my facebook, because right now i am too tired and lazy to upload them again. lol]

we also got to go to a Dinosaur exibit at a nature park which was also very bad ass considering my son loves dinosaurs. they had life sized dinosaurs set up around a mile long trail and in the play area at they end they had buried bones that you could dig up. it was fuckin sweet! Aidan loved it, I however am not an outside in the woods sort of person, but it was still pretty cool!!

When we got there the lady at the hotel upgraded our room so that we had a refridgerator and a microwave, so that was also pretty sweet, we also had an indoor pool and gym. the bed sucked ass and i honestly didnt sleep the entire time we were there, but i lived. ;)

The Bad: Nebraska traffic and roads FUCKING SUCK!!!!! the highway is like 10 lanes and everyone is speeding and on their cell phones. and as most of you already know... i HATE being in the car, i hate driving, i hate traffic and rush hour... so i was in hell.

The Ugly: we left at 3:30 in the morning to get a head of the rain that was coming.  Well folks, we were in the worst of the rain. it was DaRk, and storming its ass off and here we are on our first road trip [in fact it was my only my hubbys like 7th time on the highway at all... we are not interstate drivers.. more like back roads. lol] driving 70 miles an hour down 29 highway which is FUBARED anyways... We couldnt see a thing!!!! i mean we were litterally driving by the person in front of us headlights. so i was hystarical and sobbing and hyperventalating most of the way thru Iwoa.  Seriously jon had to pull over in a porn store parking lot so i could calm down because i was making him more nervous than anything else. lucky for me Aidan was sleeping in the back seat so at least i dint have him to deal with too. i finally closed my eyes and hummed to myself for the better part of 100 miles.

I peed outside for the first time EVER. it was horrible, but also funny as hell. We were coming thr St Joeseph and i hat to go. there was no waiting. so we found a casion, and I being a city kid thought that it would be open, i mean all the lights were on, and there was a bus full of people in the parking lot... so i assumed that it would be open. i was WRONG.  and no matter how wrong i was, i still had to pee.  so i walked to the other side of the front door, pulled my pants down and squatted my big fat white ass in front of god, the tour bus and the servalience camera.  but on the pluss side of that i managed to not pee on myself, but i got soaked by the rain.


well, theres the highlights of our trip, i will get around to posting pics, but right now check out my facebook if you want to see them.