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Wednesday, 29 October 2008

Saturday, 20 September 2008

  • all of us are sick. its no fun taking care of a sick family when you dont feel good either, aidan is running a feever of 101 and has a horrible cough, i cant breathe and i think i am running a fever too, and my throat hurts. jon has to go work in the refridgerator at work today, so that is not going to help him feel any better. ick. i hope we get better fast

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

  • I am tired of having to defend myself to my "family" its not my fault that they cant deal with the fact that i am not one of them.  just because i dont go to (their) church which i think is a cult... because i dont have blonde hair and am not all preppy (ick).. because they think jon and  are broke (ha ha fucking ha ha) and because we smoke a little weed (oops) we (i) am the devil.

    *some things u might want to know about me to make this make since to you..* 

    1. yes, i believe in god/a higher power. no, i dont go to church anymore. i believe that you should live your life to the best of your ability, be a good person and obey the karmic balance. just because i worship differentially than most people doesn't mean that i am going to go to hell.

    2. i am not a normal person. i enjoy dying my hair different colors, i enjoy wearing black and listening to bob marley. i hate spending more than 20 bucks on any given piece of clothing. i have bamboo planted in a ceramic skull sittin on my entertainment center, and no its not a halloween decoration. and altho i dont look the part much any more i have always been and will always be one of the spooky goth kids.

    3. yes, i smoke pot. no i dont do it around my son. but i do enjoy a smoke before i go to bed. it helps me sleep with out the side effects of sleeping pills. i do not pressure any one to smoke with me, and i never will. but i would really like enough respect from my friends and family to get the hell off my big fat white ass about it. i could do worse things...i could drink all day or smoke cigs (around my son.. altho i quit smoking a year ago) there are a million worse things i could do.

    4. i guess the most important thing any one should know about me is that i am a good mom. i enjoy spending time with my son, i find him to be a wonderfully entertaining child. i choose to stay at home with him so i can raise him to be the man i know he is capable of being. i love watching him learn new things every day.

     

    no after all of that being said. my in laws hate me. like really hate me. they talk about me behind my back all of the time. they insult me to my face by asking me to bake brownies for a gathering, then while i am there going to buy crappy ice cream because what i brought isnt good enough. (i am a good cook, damnit, every one else thinks so) they talk shit about me and my family, they call me a bad mom and wife. the send me extremely hateful e-mails about how worthless i am... and i am fucking tired of it. i am not a bad person and i do not deserve to be treated like they treat me.

Thursday, 28 August 2008

  • why is it that people on here have to use Xanga as some amature porn site. i really dont care to see your va jay jay. and honestly if i do.. then i will ask. but i am damned tired of getting messages with links to some ones porn site.

     

    grrr

Monday, 25 August 2008

  • i still want another baby.

     

    i have decided to go back to school next year

     

    i still want another baby.

     

    but even with a job (after school is over) i wont be able to afford to put 2 kids in daycare... i mean i could.. but it would mean i was going to work just to pay for daycare and bills.... and health insurance... because after i get a job i am sure they will take aidans insurance away.. because i will be making at least 10 an hour.. and with jons 11 an hour...  i think we will make to much...

     

    all that being said...

     

    i still want another baby.. i loved being pregnant, i loved (and hated) having a new baby... i miss having a little one in the house, i know mine is only 2, but he is soooo big and independent now that it really makes me miss him when he was little. not to mention that i would rather him be close to his sibling, unlike me and my little sister who is almost 11 years younger than me. we have nothing to talk about and honestly we only call each other like 3 times a year. i would rather aidan have some kind of relationship with his sibling.

     

    i dont know.

Sunday, 10 August 2008

  • heres to the people that change lives everyday

    it seems that i am getting better, slowly.  but thank god that right now i dont want to cut my face off with a chainsaw.  lets all hope and pray that i continue to get better.

     

    i met some one at Denneys yesterday that kinda changed my perspective on things... he was a GIANT, and i mean that litterally. he was awesome and honestly the most kind stranger i have ever met.  he is one of those people that walk into your life for only a moment,but i will never be able to forget him. i feel bad that i didnt get his name,  but i will never forget his face.  i only hope he knows what kind of impact he  has on people.

     

    Jon and i have decided that we want to be "better". we want to get healthy and eat better, altho that does not mean cutting out all of the junk.. it does mean more veggies, and exorcize for the sake of our health instead of our weight. also it means more quality family time, going to parks together when the weather cools... museums, kelidascope, stuff like that. i also want us to start recycling, which i think is somehting every1 should do... even tho i am totally guilty of using plastic bottles and then throwing them away...

     

    jon went back to work today, so i am facing my pain alone, which i hate, i absolutly loved having him at home. it made me feel so much better knowing that he was here to take care of me.  i sent Aidan to his uncl chris's this morning, so i could get the house clean and make sure that i could take my pain pills and see how bad i was going to hurt today. so far so good.  i told them to call me around 1230 to see how i am feeling, and then if i am alright they cn bring him home for his nap. that is one of my favorite times of the day, the time when we get to cuddle. hes my buddy and i HATE feeling so bad that i cant take care of him. my homie christina is watching him tomorrow while i go to the dentist and have my sockets repacked again, i also have to go to sams club to order his b-day cake.... his second birthday is tomorrow! i cant believe my little man is going to be 2!! it doesnt seem possible. i watch him grow every day, and every day it makes me cry to see him become the person i know he is going to be.

Friday, 08 August 2008

  • i get to spend the weekend in pain aagain because of course the dentist isnt open on the weekends... woo fucking hoo. i am soo not looking forward to this, and it sucks that all i have had to post about is the fact that i hurt and i am starving to death. i am so tired of this, and i cant wait for this to be over.  god only knows when that will be. i am hoping that christina will watch my little man on monday for me, cuz i know that i am going to be useless untill i get to the dentist...  lets all hope.  this sucks. i would rather gie birth unmedicated everyday for the rest of my life than go thru this pain ever again.  but i know i have at least 2 more days of it, if not 2 more weeks.

Thursday, 07 August 2008

Monday, 07 July 2008

  • i took aidan to the doctor today. she said it is just a cold, but his cough sounds like shit. blah. i hate hearing him sound so bad. hes also being a whiny little punk, and not letting me get any sleep at all, i have had about 9 hours in 3 days. im starting to act stupid. i need to sleep, and stop drinking coffee, its making my tummy hurt. oh well

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

  • offensive.

    i have some favorite words and sayings that i would like to let the world in on. (for those of you on my Myspace im sure you have already read this blog.... right?) these are words that are wonderful to scream at the stop light when you have waited thru 2 green lights because the biznatch in the car in front of you is chattin to her boyfriend on her cell phone and playin with herself, or when you are in line at the grocery store and the 98 year old woman in front of you sends back 17 items and then decides to dig thru her purse to find her CHECKBOOK. *who uses checks any more?*

     

    1. Fucktard   example: "Is your boss really that much of a fucktard?"

     

    2. Douche-Monkey  *this is kinda like calling some one a douche bag... only a little more creative.*

     

    3. Cum guzzling gutter slut    example: " your mom is such a cum guzzling gutter slut"

     

    4. Horse faced ass whore     example:  tommy's girlfriend Shayleen is a horse faced ass whore.

     

    5. Asshat.   *i like to think that this means that you have your head up your ass.*

     

    6. Blood belching tampon holder  *i think this one is pretty self-explanitory.*

     

    im sure that this will be updated regulary, it seems that i am always finding new things to yell at people.  but for now, please feel free to use any of these sayings at Quick Trip the next time a meth head is paying for a carton of smokes with nickles and penneys or at CVS when the fat lady with the tranasorus arms takes 15 min to ring up your 3 items. at least if you say something like " dear god, i thought tweekers were supposed to be fast! how bout you move your ass you blood belching tampon holder, or  was your mom a to much of a cum guzzling gutter slut to teach you about common courtesy?!?!" the person behind the counter will get a good laugh.

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